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Monday, 09 November 2009

  • I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
    You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in
    And if you do not want to see me again
    I would understand, I would understand

    The angry boy, a bit too insane
    Icing over a secret pain
    You know you don't belong

    You're the first to fight
    You're way too loud
    You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
    I know something's wrong

    Well, everyone I know has got a reason
    To say put the past away

    Wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
    You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
    And if you do not want to see me again
    I would understand, I would understand

    And well, he's on the table
    And he's gone to code
    And I do not think anyone knows
    What they are doing here

    And your friends have left you
    You've been dismissed
    I never thought it would come to this
    And I, I want you to know

    Everyone's got to face down the demons
    Maybe today we can put the past away

    I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
    You could cut ties with all the lies
    That you've been living in and if you do not want to see me again
    I would understand, I would understand, I would understand

    I would understand
    I would understand
    Understand

    Can you put the past away?
    I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
    I would understand

    I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
    I would understand
    I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
    And I would understand

    I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
    I would understand
    I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
    And I would understand
    Jumper- Third eye blind

    oh... Lyrical irony, how I adore thee.


    I'm doing really well. *honestly
    Despite what you might pick up on... or what I say~

    Those are the feelings and concerns of others.  It is Never a bad thing that I feel.  (but if I see it affect someone I care about--that I feel responsible for and sorry for)

    And I have these amazing people in my life that Care about me.
    Sometimes too much*


    I smile with this noose around my neck


  • I don't know how to translate that I'm doing really really well...when All I'm able to show is---not matching up with that.

    I mentioned perhaps that I'm one of those people that can never be happy
    (but of course... That's not completely true~ and it shows~)

    I think, at this point in my life,
    I'm just not talking time to breathe

    but...
    in that breathlessness has been incredible growth

    But a lot of lies as well



Saturday, 07 November 2009

  • I'd like to take this opportunity

    to apologize to
         my feet.

    I am so, so sorry...
    poor feet...

    I kept you in those 5 inch-healed CAGS for too long.
    and now you seem to think that there are wholes in you...
    I checked.
    You're good...no holes*

    (to post later* Last night. but for now, Facebook status update from 4:30am)

    M.S- *thinks* watch movie with girls, check; get ready for gala in 20mins, check; put blood, sweat, and/or tears into a project, check; Dance, check; eat good food that was bad for me, check; wal-mart adventure, check; car ride with meaningful conversation, check; stay up late talking with beautiful ladies, check; midnight walk, check.........and it's barely Saturday morning**

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

  • tick tick tick....BOOM

    Something's going on.
    Something's building... I'm not sure what tho

    all of my stress signs are blaring though.

    like singing in...not english.
    and making sarcastic comments
    and eating food
    and wearing make-up
    and going on midnight walks


    Erg.

    Pretty sure I've got it covered.  As long as I don't have to talk to anyone~

    This week will be busy.

    Starting this morning.  GCSA stuff.  school stuff. church stuff. MOPs stuff. friend stuff.  music stuff. art stuff.

    I know that Thursday at........dang. nevermind... I'm busy then too*
    geeze.
    I'm glad I don't need sleep (which isn't true at all~)

    ps.  I'm being treated for a stomach ulcer.
    and I've been having these weird stabbing pains in my chest (I blame Tim---sympathy pains or something) which is something I'm Not use to~


    Thank you for all of those who have been praying for me.
          But you can stop now.


  • so how many personalities do I really have?

    this picture has made it around to a lot of my friends.
    as of this evening I have been tagged as everything except "the slow one"

    way to be*

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Chatboard (5)

  • ONE_DAVID_S
    hrm. expansion. choices, I'd like to be on the narrow path, and I don't see it anywhere on that chaotic sign.
  • ONE_DAVID_S
    thanks for visiting me today.
  • ONE_DAVID_S
    yeah, I don't like the new layout or theme that I have, and that's beacuse I can't tweak it at all. You can view everything on it though, so it's A-OK
  • ONE_DAVID_S
    aw yeah style. I like it. Sorry, I fixed my xanga, I don't like it much, but you should be able to view everything.
  • da_smart1
    chatboard aye?

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  • I want the world to know it is only right for you to judge me on who i am. I have interests and ambitions. I am my creativity. I love to travel, i have been to all 50 states, Canada, Mexico, Peru and Jamaica. I want the world to know that I am happy. Smiles are contagious, and I want to infect everyone. I want the world to know that I am not simple. I try not to be selfish, or rude. I am not disrespectful or bad mannered, though if something irritates me, I will take action. I want the world to know that I can be shy, but at the same time, I am a social butterfly. I want the world to know that my love is passionate, and that my hatred is strong. I am Melanie, i am everything i want to be. And still learning.